Wednesday, April 01, 2009

It's Gotta Be Time, Right?

The final strech, Dave found this picture a while back and I keep thinking it's gotta be soon. I am 39 weeks along-due in 9 days. Please don't stay in any longer, girlie!!! I really hope that she isn't one of those that camps out in utero two weeks after we've been expecting her. Not to complain, but I had no idea the last two weeks would be so uncomfortable, other than the puking in the beginning, I've been very healthy. Now I can't sleep...well meaning people tell me it's God's way of preparing you, but after reading some posts on facebook from some of my friends who are new moms...seems like not sleeping the last few weeks doesn't even come close to how tired you'll be when they arrive.
I'm ready for her to come as far as my body goes, but my emotions are all over the place. We still don't have a name for sure...not even 3 that we love. So that worries me, can you take a baby home from the hospital without a name? And this whole 1+1=3 thing, I don't quite get that math. Don't get me wrong we can't wait for her to be in our lives. It's just we are very FREE right now, and I'm starting to sense the inevitable change that will happen. So I wonder how will I handle it, breastfeeding, up late, body all messed up, hormones, and trying to still be a great wife. I know my husband has the patience to handle me and this new bundle of joy-so I'll bank on that.
One final thought about parenting, there are so many things I don't have figured out (as you may well know based on my thoughts on faith) but there is one thing. It's very difficult for me to go through this whole experience of pregnancy and say there isn't' a God. All of the details and crazy things that develop. The fact that two people make love and make this-that must be intelligent design. How else would you get two people to take on this much responsibility, unless making it is fun? My husband and I are not about to boldly go where no man has gone before, but we've never been here for sure. I'm very glad for David and the gift God gave me in Him. He's my best friend and I'm completely in love with him. (sorry for the sap again). He makes me laugh even when things are rough. I just think that if everyone were blessed in this way, the world might be a lot more forgiving and happy. Thank God for David Weber and for Baby Weber too! I am hoping that the birth goes smoothly and we have a healthy baby girl.


Karin said...

I like this post! I feel the same way about Eric and Piper. I hope she comes soon for you too! After the expectations that your daughter will be here on a certain day, it's kind of a let down to think you have to wait even longer to meet her! I am so anxious about meeting Piper at 11 weeks~ can't imagine what a mess I'll be at 39 weeks like you!

Tiffany said...

We've been thinking about you!!!!!!!!!! Lily asks pretty much daily if Julie's baby is here YET... she puts great emphasis on the word YET(I remind her that your baby is also Dave's baby).

Your post reminds me of a time when we were getting ready to travel to China for Lily.... We were so excited for her to be coming into our lives... but the feeling that EVERYTHING was going to change and that we weren't going to be as free was really on my mind. The minute I saw her all of those feelings went away. There are times that we both miss that freedom but the joy that these little people bring to life is amazing!

Can't wait to meet your little baby Weber!!!!!!!